The End...

It's funny how when we think we have jumped through the last hoop that we realize we are encountering a new set of hoops. After much counselling and prayer, we finally decided to pursue the Donor Egg avenue.

This new path would bring complications... do we tell our child or not...

After much debate, we came to an agreement. My sister, a true gift from God, agreed to be my egg donor. Needless to say this month has been gruelling for the both of us, in and out of the clinic for blood tests and ultrasounds and daily injections of IVF medications.

During this process, we learned that my sister and I are similar in many ways, as we seemingly inherited the same type of ovaries. She, like me, had 4 follicles on one side and maybe 1 on the other! We decided to continue with the cycle and were preparing for egg retrieval, when we received the call today that we would have to cancel this cycle...

Apparently her estrogen levels had plateaued, meaning that the potential eggs would not likely lead to a pregnancy... This is truly God telling my sister and I that we weren't made for IVF procedures. In conclusion, my husband and I are destined to not have children with either of our genetics...

It's been nearly a year since my 2nd IVF cycle. I've come a long way in realizing that this is God's will. Am I sad? Yes. Am I devastated? No.

I recall telling my husband yesterday, God has blessed me with many great things already. Now I have closure and am ready for the next chapter of my life.

Potential new job for Hubby

Well, my hubby might be getting a new job... something that we've been hoping for a the past few years. We've been puppy sitting/ training my sister's new dog Mo Mo. He's 5 months old and should be going home in another 3 or 4 months. My sister-in-law also just bought a puppy and her pup comes over for 3-4 hours Mon - Fri. So needless to say, my house is a "dog house"!

December 29, 2009

The past few months have been very difficult. After 2 failed IVF cycles, my husband went into a depression. He was off from work for 2 months. I did my best to be supportive, but was struggling to keep myself emotionally balanced.

It was after my 2nd IVF cycle that the doctor mentioned that I have premature ovarian aging (POA). Although I was 33 for my 1st cycle, my ovaries looked like that of a 43 year old woman. We were devasted with the news, especially since I miscarried after 6 weeks with my first IVF cycle.

There are times when we ask why! Why did we wait so long to try IVF... to make a long story short... below was our time line

Married at age 28
Started journey for a family at 29
Found out husband had low sperm count at 30
I went for screening and all my tests appeared fine.
Husband went through 2 surgical procedures to fix varicocele. Completed when I was 32.
Varicocele did not fix low sperm count. Debated over IVF route, tried IUI twice.
First IVF at 33.
2nd IVF at 34. I found out about having POA.
Now considering using donor eggs and how I would "tell" my future child.